Arbit..

I finally decide to pen after an extended hiatus. I guess that makes the title quite obvious. All this while, I have involuntarily been either busy or lazy. Surprisingly, never in between. Occasional introspections lead to certain realizations.

Firstly, as I assist a brilliant super-old professor with his e-mailing, uploading documents, and all the trivial stuff even 4 year olds of this day do with great dexterity, I mentally kick myself in the butt every second, regretting why I agreed to do this? Only to be shaken to the truth later that, I am walking straight into a similar situation, albeit a lot sooner. The rate at which technology is advancing and my brain degrading, I don't see why I can't be tagged a 'technology retard' in a few years.

I am afraid, I have been treating myself as a dog increasingly often. So to say, I reward myself for the teeniest accomplishment. I guess my complacency threshold is hitting a rock bottom. It is now so annoyingly ridiculous that I treat myself generously with a 15$ buffet for avoiding a paid meal or 20 minute cardio. Someone, slap me!!

As much as I am enjoying every moment of my single, carefree, indulgent student life with just enough means to take care of me, frequent success stories of my fellow job seekers and recently 'settled down' family guys, more often than not, is making me insecure. Of course to be forgotten a minute later. To all such dear friends : stop getting jobs and please stop sending wedding invitations. You know I am kidding.

In reference to the comment I usually make jokingly "Samaj kya sochega?" and to those who think they give a rat's ass about what people think, I am sorry to say you are a hypocrite, unless, of course, you are a Naga. Well, the explanation is, whether you dress up (that makes you feel confident 'around people'), make money (more than you need, to maintain 'status'), talk like a gentleman ( 'at meetings'), hide your booze and porno ('from folks'), its because you think quite a bit about what people think about you. Well I would agree, the less conscious we are, the better for us.

Finally, to all those who could not see my vidoes on FB, I think shooting a gun is the one of the the coolest things I have done lately. Apart from the fact that I was scared shitless before the first shot, and that the shot gun almost tore my shoulder apart (despite my immense strength), if you have not done it before, just do it! As the winter approaches, achingly slowly, the skis call out my name even louder. Participants needed :P