I do not know if anyone does, but even though I am enjoying a moment, at the back of my head I regret that this moment is passing by. Lets hypothesize, I finally acquire an abundant supply of the dish I have been craving for, and relish the unearthly pleasure, at the first bite, I still regret that with every progressive bite, my marginal utility is diminishing. It goes on till the point I stuff myself and regret that I ever craved. Till the vicious cycle begins again. (Perhaps why my buffet philosophy, contrary to a-la-carte philosophy, is to eat the best item first, and as quickly as possible).
This kind of takes me back to my previous post. At this moment, when after millions of explanations to thousands of people about my prolonged education, I have made it to the point where, if questioned, can give a definitive date of my MS defense, I look back and see how, just yesterday I arrived to the US of A, as a naive international student, one that can be identified from a mile away, from their attire, curious amazed eyes, empty pockets as a FOB. And here I am, standing as if those 3.5 years just zoomed past. My admiration of the surroundings, people, even the buses has diminished with acquaintance. But yet again, as my wonderful student life comes to an end, I regret the crossover to the professional life, and ask myself yet again, exactly as I did 5.5 years back at the end of my UG, "Will I ever live these golden times again? Will I ever be a student again?"
With age, the probability of the answer being "No" is obviously higher. Firstly, in the future, the bonding I develop with my peers will obviously not be the same. Secondly, I can see myself getting wiser everyday, but see it otherwise as far as smartness goes. I regret again the irreversibility of time, and take as a consolation that things will be good, if not better in the future. I take this moment to thank all the wonderful people I have met, lived with, during the glory days of schooling, undegrad and grad life, for having made my memories the way they are : memorable. I would be delighted if we could organize a reunion, at the exact same place with the exact same people doing the exact same thing. However, we are not the same. Cheers people !! Carpe Diem !!
